MarzGurl's Life of Rage (no, really!)

11:43am: I want to be better
I want to be better about my updates, like I used to be. Time to try again.

2:12am: ScrewAttack Gaming Convention
Basic details:

When: July 3 - 5, 2009
Where: Westin Dallas/Ft. Worth Airport
Finally, the change I needed in my convention schedule. Games, games, games!

Go here for details and to register: http://www.sgconvention.com/register.php?ref=MarzGurl

Yes, that's my referral link. But, in all seriousness, this is gonna be great. Can't wait for further updates.

Oh, and by the way, I'm back from the dead, guys.

11:59pm: Dear Almost All of my Friends
"TRUE LIFE: I'M STUCK AT HOME
Are you at the age where everyone has left their parents' house but you're still living at home? Do you like the idea that your mom still cooks and does your laundry, or are you ready to take that on yourself, but you can't figure out how to get out of the nest? Do your parents nag you to get a place of your own, but you can't, or just don't see the point? Are they about to cut you off or kick you out? Or do you have a significant other who wants you to get a place of your own at last?

Conversely, are your parents refusing to let you move out? Do you feel that you are an adult and able to leave, but worry about offending your family by leaving home?

If you appear to be between the ages of 20 and 28, and can identify with any of the above email us at leavehome@mtvn.com with all of the details. Please be sure to include your name, location, phone number, and a recent photo."


JUST DRIVE YOUR OWN CARS OR SOMETHING!

10:39pm: So, what's goin' on, guys?

10:45am: Good News among the Bad News


Lots of projects in the works now. Perfect for taking my mind off the bad things.

Exciting things are happening every day...

1:15am: Bootlegs-R-Us
Check out some sales from this person: http://japanesecandy06.livejournal.com/

Specifically, here's their link to their DVD sales: http://rainblood.com/crustration/japanesecandy/anime.htm

Just... oh my God, the Holy Grail of bootlegs. I was first alerted to this when I was going through my Friends List and communities, and I found a post by this user advertising some amazing Death Note collection.


Episodes 1 - 37, one single disc. Not to mention, the box art does not exist on any legitimately released Death Note DVD. Also, Japanese Language audio/English subs? Never release that way, not to mention Japan doesn't do that (China sure does like to, though!). Region 1? No. MPEG-2? No. Not legitimate.

Looking at other DVDs, like certain Live-Action stuff available here. One of them, I was able to read a little. The English description on the back of the box was QUITE terrible, barely even readable.

Oh, but here was what was particularly the kicker to me... here's their release of Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne:

Episodes 1 - 44, Japanese language audio/English subs... you know, Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne was NEVER released in the US (or any English speaking country as far as I know). But... wait, what's that down at the bottom of the back of the box...?

Do you see that...? Disney's castle logo? Pixar!? Since when did Pixar ever do anything while teamed up with Disney that was NOT CGI animated? WOW, that's bad!

Okay... I'm done ranting and raving about this for now.

11:44am: Bad news
I dropped my phone in the toilet. Yep, you heard right, in the toilet. It worked okay at first. There didn't appear to be any harm done to it. It worked when I fell asleep. But now, the phone won't turn on. Some lights blink a little when I try. That's about the best I have. I'm pretty mad at myself. Actually, ironically, earlier last night I was fantasizing about smashing my phone into the ground as soon as I got off of work. But by later that night I had decided against it. Looks like God got the better of me, though, huh?

So, yeah, if you need me you'll probably have to send me an IM or an E-mail. With any luck I'll be able to transfer the data to another older Sprint phone I have without paying out of pocket to get a whole new phone.

God, I hate myself.

2:59am: PLEASE CAST YOUR VOTE!
If you haven't read lately or done so already, I could still use some votes from you!

Please vote for me as the Nostalgia Chick!

http://thatguywiththeglasses.com/site-news/general-updates/1455-nostalgia-chick-bob-winners--more

Register and comment saying, "I CHOOSE KAYLYN!" Or something along those lines. A reason why you liked my video would be good, too.

Again, here's my video.

11:07am: Please voice your opinion for me in the Nostalgia Chick Contest
So, you may remember that I posted a video that I made trying out for the role of the "Nostalgia Chick" (if not, please watch my video here).

There is essentially a "voting" of sorts taking place. Basically, there is no simple poll. You simply voice your opinion in the comments section of the article, and your opinions will get "considered" by the site administrators. Out of the Top 5 girls, if you were to tally the comments, I'm currently in what I guess you could call "2nd Place". But I still think I could win if I could just generate a few more comments.

So, if you thought my video was worthy of Nostalgia Chick, I encourage you to please make an account at http://www.thatguywiththeglasses.com (I promise it's fast and free) and after that, please comment here saying I WANT KAYLYN (after, you know, viewing the other videos, of course).

I appreciate all the help I can get!

1:13pm: Nostalgia Chick Entry
So, the Nostalgia Critic is having this contest and he is looking for the Nostalgia Chick. I made an entry. I'm not too thrilled with it because, hey, I know it's TOO RIDICULOUSLY LONG. I won't ever make anything of this length ever again, but I think you'll find that I took out as much dead air as possible and if you don't have the attention span of a goldfish you should be able to sit all the way through it.



The deadline for this contest is the 25th, and after that, the videos will be posted on http://www.thatguywiththeglasses.com to also be partially voted on by the viewers. If you think mine is worth the vote, I'd really appreciate it if you can spare it!

I'll be posting about this again later, probably within two days.

9:54am: For those of you who don't know yet...
There's been a bit of a change in my hair style.

2:51pm: LiveJournal has been unblocked at work!
Just thought I'd make an update on that. Looks like I'll be checking in on LJ more frequently.

EDIT: Looks like MySpace has been unblocked, too.

4:40am: Video: AtsuiCon 2007 - Otaku for Life
You guys will never believe this.

I got some insane inspiration and have picked up all of my projects where I left off. I finished this video set in the shortest amount of time I can remember finishing a con video in just a few sittings. I wish I'd had the inspiration to finish this nearly a year ago. I owe so much, and I feel terrible that it's so late. But I'm back, and I'm in the swing of my projects again.

This will be removed in the morning when everything is fully uploaded: Some of you may be seeing some blank videos or broken links. The full video is in the process of being uploaded to mgp.com, and two of the three videos are still in processing on YouTube. You should be able to see everything within the hour.

Part One


Part Two


Part Three


Full-Length Video:
http://www.marzgurlproductions.com/AtsuiCon2007.wmv
28 mins, 58 secs
133 megs




Remind me to E-mail DJ Laen with a sincere apology. I'll need to do that as soon as I wake up.

So, basically, to copy/paste myself from my own YouTube description:
"AtsuiCon took place in August of 2007. This is a late update, but I owed it to everyone. AtsuiCon was fun and small, but suddenly on Day 2 the unthinkable happened. But the 1,000 attendees pulled together to save their weekend. Watch the video (especially part 2) to see how great this group of people can be!"

This means that I am back in the filming/editing/anime convention scene. Expect three other videos. I still have AnimeFEST 2007, Oni-Con 2007, and A-Kon 2008 coming up. Time to put myself back together.

1:55am: Edelweiss

12:12pm:

every word

12:47pm: Finally getting back into the swing
I finally got around to opening up the comments in my last LJ post. Every one of you was very supportive. I want to thank you all.

Things appeared to be fixed, for the time being. Getting back on my feet emotionally and financially. With some will power of my own I think I can do it. I think I'm managing it, slowly but surely. I think I still come off as being disappointing sometimes, but I think I'm proving that I WANT to put forth the effort.

Work is going great, I'm making more money than I've ever made before, and I may be able to see some family in California as soon as next month. I think I can get back to being happy again.

I'll be back to the old me before we all know it.

3:39am: Shame and Guilt Beyond Imagination
Wouldn't life be a lot easier if we didn't feel guilt for things? Some people don't feel guilt. This is how they are able to lie, cheat, steal, even kill. To think, I'm saying to myself that crazy killers must have it easy. But it's true, isn't it? For a person with no conscience, killing another human being must be incredibly easy.

I have made a lot of mistakes recently. I have hurt a lot of people. I must say, I am probably about the most depressed I've been in as far as I can remember.

I am going to be saying some scary things here. But I need everyone to realize that these were mild, far-away, gray images that crossed my mind, not something I would ever carry out or follow through.

But...

...I fantasized about brushing up against death.

I played with the idea of hurting myself. I've never done such a thing. Real physical pain isn't actually something I want to inflict upon myself. I couldn't ever do it. But, I remember thinking, "That really would be the easy way out, wouldn't it?" Of course, that goes against absolutely everything I stand for. You can't cheat out on life. People get by on much worse. What right does emo high school boy down the street have to slit his wrists? It always made me so angry.

But I pictured it in my head. Maybe just one cut. Or maybe if I jumped off of something kind of high and broke a limb.

It's not because I wanted to feel pain. It's because I honestly thought I deserved it.

The things I've written about people.
The things I've promised people.
The things I've taken for granted about people.

This week, the nights have become increasingly longer, and my sleep has become increasingly shortened. I toss and turn, practically squirming under a ten ton boulder of guilt. I'm utterly ashamed at the person I've become. I look in the mirror, and I don't know me. On the outside I see something I kind of once wanted to be - I became fun and popular and finally grew into a body I liked well enough outside of the acne. But I felt like a completely different person on the inside. Inside, I felt like I was rotting fruit, hovered by flies.

I can think of at least five people this is an apology to, some more than others, but all of whom are equally as important.

It's true, though, I've never wanted to give up more in my life. Now, that doesn't mean give up on "living". It does, however, mean give up on trying or pretending or whatever with people. I don't even want to take the chance of hurting or misleading others anymore. I don't know what needs to change, but something needs to change immediately, because I'm utterly miserable. That's nobody's fault but my own, I know that. I've been saying that over and over again. And I keep hearing, "It's okay. I'm not mad. It will be fine. I forgive you." But I think, How can it ever be fine? I can't so easily forgive myself. How can you?

I deserved the slaps in the face today. It was a wake-up to reality. And the reality was that I was completely oblivious to the destruction I was causing.

I hope that tomorrow will really be the determining factor. When I wake up, what will happen? Will life be different? Can I change for the better? And how do I do it? Do I rely on the others, or do I need to do it all alone...?

12:37am: New Arsenal

11:43am: Do You Remember Love?

3:08pm: With what little free time I had today...
IT'S NERF OR NOTHING!

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EDIT: In addition to this, Mike posted some of these pictures on /toy at 4chan.org. Here's a current screen cap:

5:20pm: CORRECTIVE ACTIONS
I'm checking all computers in this house. I'm deleting all cookies. I'm changing all passwords. And I'm ALWAYS logging out before walking away from this thing.

I WILL figure it out. I have my suspicions. This charade will NOT continue. This is unacceptable.

I'm out.

9:56pm: Back, and still kickin'!
Well, my MySpace page is back, and very, very EMPTY. If you feel like adding me back, I'm still at the same old MySpace address:

http://www.myspace.com/marzgurlproductions

Thanks for screwing me over, MySpace.

9:54pm: Gee, THANKS, MySpace (my horror story)
Okay, so, I got this E-mail the other day from MySpace.com -

Your MySpace account has been deleted for violating our Terms of
Service.

This is usually due to one of the following:

* Nude images, sexually suggestive or violent photos
* Covering our banner ads with HTML
* Harassing other users
* You do not meet the minimum age requirement
* Spamming the classifieds, forums, bulletins, or other sections of the
site
* Attempting to artificially inflate scores
* Scripting the site

Your account cannot be restored. If you choose to return to MySpace,
please follow the rules.

So, I'm like, WTF? Is this for real? I had no warning or anything! And I've had this account for about three years! I thought, "There's no way this E-mail was real. This has to be fake." But I tried logging in, just to be sure. And, what do you know, I couldn't log in. I tried clicking "I forgot my password" to get my password sent to my E-mail account. However, MySpace claimed that my E-mail completely wasn't registered with them, DESPITE the fact that I was still receiving E-mails about friends requests and new messages.

So here was the E-mail I sent to MySpace: ( Read more... )

Their "Technical Support" consisted of this stupid copy/paste thing which indicated to me that they totally didn't care and that they thought I was your standard not-net-savvy user.

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Ugh, a load of bull, really. My response showed them that I was NOT, in fact, a fool:
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So, in order to verify that I really am who I say I am, this is what they asked me to do:
( Read more... )

So, I did exactly as they told me and sent them a picture of myself so that they could verify my identity. All I got back was this bucket of crap:
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So, there you have it. You hear that? There's NOTHING MySpace can do to fix the problem that THEY caused. If there was a problem with me violating their precious Terms of Agreement or whatever they REALLY should have sent me a warning first, because I have no clue what it was. Was it my user picture of me in my Yatta! outfit? 'Cause if it was, why? That was the ONLY picture I had EVER used as my user picture over the last THREE YEARS, and I had never had any problems with it! WHAT. THE. HELL?

I wouldn't be returning to MySpace if only it wasn't the principal of the thing, you know, I had built up my profile and my friends list over the course of THREE YEARS, and MySpace suddenly rips it out from under me. There are people that I can only contact via MySpace now. So I almost have no choice. And unless I make this profile again, I have no way of messaging all of my contacts to let them know what happened. If I could at least have let them know what happened then maybe I really WOULDN'T return.

Anyway, if any of you were on my MySpace friends list, you may see me disappear, and then I'll be reappearing and REsending you a friends request (EVEN THOUGH WE'RE ALREADY FRIENDS!!!!!). Oh, and if there's any of you out there who have a MySpace account and didn't have me friended before, feel free to send me a friends request sometime over the next day or two at http://www.myspace.com/marzgurlproductions .

God... What is WRONG with people?

8:38pm:

12:27am: Would You Believe It?


Over all the last few years, I've picked up a number of The Legend of Zelda games. However, I've never beaten (or really come close to beating) even ONE of them. It's been twenty-ish years since the beginning of the legend, and I certainly feel like I've missed out on a hunk of gaming history. Not to mention, I never owned an NES, an N64, or a Game Cube, so most of the time I never had my chance. However, thanks to being the proud owner of a Wii with Shop Channel and having roommates that have consoles and games I never owned before, I can now play nearly the entire Legend of Zelda library, and most of it is already all here under my own roof.

Now, it's been so long, and since all I know about the game play, story, and characters of Legend of Zelda come from roommates, videos, friends, and what I see/read on the Internet, I no longer care to play them in release order necessarily. I can choose to play them in any order I want now (except for, of course, the OBVIOUS direct sequels and such).

However, I thought that I would take this in an interesting direction. Many people for a very long time have come up with these timeline theories. Basically, if you haven't heard of these theories, it is the idea that there are two different timelines in the Legend of Zelda series, specifically split by the game Ocarina of Time. Fans from there have been trying to fill the gaps in the history of the kingdom of Hyrule. For a super-basic idea of what I'm talking about, you can watch this video provided by Game Trailers. However, after some research on what is canon and what isn't, I'm told that this is ever so slightly incorrect. But this is a basic introduction to the Split Timeline Theory. By the way, this is Part 6 of the series, but the rest of the series is a very interesting watch, so I would encourage you to find parts One through Five. Also, this video was released before two of the Zelda games were released this past year.

So, because I feel like trying something interesting, I'm going to play through the games via the most popular split timeline theory, also based on some of my own research based on what's Nintendo-canon, starting with The Legend of Zelda: The Minish Cap. Here's the way I'm choosing to play the games:

The Minish Cap
The Ocarina of Time
^
TIMELINE A ---------- TIMELINE B
Majora's Mask ----------
Twilight Princess ----------
Four Swords ----------
Four Swords Adventure ---------- The Windwaker
Legend of Zelda ---------- Phantom Hourglass
Adventure of Link ----------
Oracle of Seasons ----------
Oracle of Ages ----------

I'm aware that there are arguable places and holes in some of these placements, but either way, I'm REALLY just playing the games to enjoy them.

So, anyway, I'm currently winning a ebay auction to get ahold of The Minish Cap (for only $5, cartridge only, but all I wanna do is play the game), should be winning it by this time tomorrow, and I'll have it in my grubby little hands soon enough.

Supposedly, Nintendo has actually stated in a few interview that there is, in fact, a split timeline branching out of Ocarina of Time. Does this solidify the entire split timeline theory? Of course not, but it's certainly fun to think about.

I am also aware that there is the theory that the Legend of Zelda is just that: a LEGEND. A retelling of the story of Zelda, Link, and Ganon over the ages. So, I'm free to tackle this in any order I choose. Either way... I just want the experience of the storytelling power of these games, and I want to know with my own eyes why it's so near and dear to so many gamer's hearts.

Heh. Legend of Zelda.